friends... crushes.. oh my it's the entire package :]

Weekend was totally busy!
saturday=winterformal.
sunday=cerritosmall <3
monday=disneyland.<3

yepp SRSLY :]
totall funn. :]
i'm wiped out.

today was just... blehh..
too tired... pmsing.
lol

one thought that comes into my head today like a gazillion times...
"everything's going to pass by. it's going to happen and then end just as fast."
it'sthesadtruththatweallhavetoface.

so i'm thinking...
what are friends?
Sometimes i don't even understand who and what that really means. "best friend" is no longer an important word used to describe someone who's affected our lives and been with us ever since the beginning of time. I think... i don't even know who i FULLY trust and who i'm able to tell stuff to without being pushed down and under pressure. i hate how nowadays i can only tell MOST of my secrets to close friends but not ALL of my secrets... because i admit... maybe i'm drifting away. maybe i'm drifting away so it won't hurt as much when we graduate? i'm not sure at all but i'll be glad for every moment, every sob, every laugh i share with people. So now. Sure I'm confused and maybe hurt and retarded from the smallest reasons... but still, little things get to me... it's who i am. Sure i'm not the same person i was last year. heck... i'm not the same person i was in the beginning of the year. but all i have to say is, like the change. or lose my trust. Harsh? not really... maybe you oppose it but that's the way most people think. :/ maybe it's cuz people have other now closer friends... sure. but don't come to me only when something bad happens...



Sure i have crushes but WHO DOESN'T? but I'm not looking for a relationship. not yet. :] so yeahh... heh heh.

i'm not sure if anyone will even respond to this at all. but if you truly believe you're a geniune real friend that i can completely trust :] cmt this. :] please.