prove me wrong.

hmm break.
i hope it's a break from EVERYTHING. i'm gonna make it like that.
i think
i'm drifting away..but the thing is.. i'm not trying to stop it anymore.
the scariest thing for me is being alone... but now it seems... i don't care whether i'm alone or if i'm not. i can't differentiate from a friend or an acquaintance anymore...
when facebook asked who made me laugh the most.. i couldn't answer... no one popped into mind.
whenever i got on facebook, aim, anything... i couldn't help but wish that i could be notified because someone was starting a conversation with me.
maybe i don't have a life. maybe i do work too hard. but i really hope that whoever i call a friend understands me.
i don't want an half-assed remark telling me that i'm a workaholic and i need to chill and i'm just an asshole.
thanks, already knew that. I am an asshole. I really don't give a crap anymore. but i wish someone could just PROVE ME wrong... just this once.
i feel like everything's changed. everything's messed up. i can't live up to people's expectations... could ANYONE prove me wrong?
i feel like i'm drifting away, even from the best of friends. i'm getting so tired of everything... so quickly. i wake up and put on a smile.. but don't know for who anymore. i feel like i laugh at my own jokes and laugh to cover up how lonely i feel. BULLSHIT when someone tells me there's always a friend that's going to be there for me. they can't even tell if i'm feeling like this right now. I'm sorry. i'm just trying to rant this out. Cuz i know this is a lost war for me if i talk to someone about it. i keep getting the same response.. and i feel like everyone still drifts away after hearing it. this is a lost war. i give up. after this. i give up. i'll keep putting a smile on my face, and keep wishing for someone to come up and prove me wrong.